I've written this story various ways, different places all over the net. I've told the story to family members, friends... work-buddies... always changing how far I go into the details based on my judgement of what these people can grasp. Very few people get ANY of it. Most are left wondering where I get my values, or have the pre-judgement of my method(s) as something bogus (numerology, to name one).

Anyways, I hope the response is warmer here, if there may be response.

So here goes: I've had four relationships with girls/women in life that I would consider big parts of my experience here; I've loved four females (they meant/mean a lot to me)

Their first names (as I spoke them) are Marilyn, Alisha, Sara, and Katie. M.A.S.K (recent to past).
Pythagorean numerological value for these names is 92. Marilyn and I broke up on 9/2/2006, and her name (Marilyn) has one possible value of 92, as well (adding letters by their alphabetical placement without-first summing). There are 92 naturally occurring elements known to exist in the universe. 92 is 23(4). It took four girls' names to have the value of 92.

So all the names add up to 92... and Marilyn's name has one value of 92. My full name and Marilyn's full name are exactly equal (Pythagorean): 94. I once called her my perfect mirror. She's the only girl out of all of the four that I had a full sexual-relationship with, as well. She had a lung collapse on 2/9/2006. 92 and 29. Voice. Lung. Air. I had ear problems my whole life. Had a mastoidectomy at age 14. You know... we use things that happen as landmarks in our memories of things. 2/9 was of course right near V-day.. which was spent-by us, in a hospital.
I was age 23 throughout most of our relationship, with a padding of 22 on one end (of about two weeks), and 24 on the other end (of about 3 months).
She grew up in the 23rd county of her state, the state where I was born. The nearest main road was 23. I spoke of 23 often-often jokingly, as we were met with it many times...
Tool came out with the album "10,000 Days", while we were together, the very last song was Viginti Tres, or 23. The Number 23 movie was filming when we were together, and came out 2/23/2007.

Alisha, before her- was born on Valentines day-- within 24 hours of a new moon. Marilyn within 24 hours of a full moon.
Alisha=23 Pythagorean. Her full name (that I won't write, right now) completes a Pythagorean triangle with her first name-Alisha, 23-as the hypotenuse. Her last name is the same name that my own mother had before marrying my father. (Finch... I guess I'll let that one go)
(skip to A. for some more connection). I first started seeing 23 heavily around the time I was, in-heart with Alisha. Around this time I also got a disorder of the jaw called TMJ... I associated TMJ with 23. The pain was hell.

I guess A is pretty close.
(A. Alisha shares the same last name that my mother had before marrying my father: Finch. Alisha- the value of the name is 23, which is the average of the total value of names- Pythagorean. Another value of the names (adding by placement, no individual-numeral-sum of single letters) is 227. 2/27 is my mother's birthday. 22/7 is an approximation of pi. July 22nd is the 203rd day of the year.

I was born in the 23rd week of the year (June 11th, 1982), at 22:03 EST, 2:03 UT. There were 203 days remaining in the year.
I was born 23 days until July 4th, 1982- On which date the United States would turn 206.

26 letters, 206 bones, among many other things 26. (26 i use to find this matrix, to navigate. Language.

And I can't order this very well.. maybe I need to start it in word..

When I got with Marilyn, I got a myspace account: Because she had one. (But silently, I also wanted to see Alisha, who also had myspace). The account number was 7400227.

Synchronicity=74 Pythagorean. 227 is the value of the names, non-Pythagorean. 100-26=74. Marilyn framed some Alex Grey art-works, print 26/100... five of them, for X-mas, 2005. I had given the other one to a girl with the last name Webster.

Marilyn is now dating a guy (they look like they could be brother/sister) born on 6/26. He has red hair. She's the only red-head I ever had a relationship with. Said she wasn't attracted to red-headed boys. As said, both of our names added to 94. We both got a case of HPV after breaking up... she blamed me, I blamed her (but not really, even though I'm pretty sure it was from her, as I checked history, which was something she wouldn't do). This finished the relationship off-basically... her using it as a reason against me. I had hurt her before, so I don't blame her. She's human. I only ever blamed her for blaming me... but I still don't blame her. yada... it goes away, but a mark was made.

Anyways, we broke up on 9/2- on the phone... but I went to see her on 9/3. I had just moved to county 93, and that day I put on a license plate 93 x xxx. 9/3/2006 was 2300 days until Dec 21st, 2012. 9/4 would be the first day really apart. Both our names, as said=94 (full names) Broke up in the month of 9. First four letters of her last name are Duel, and my last name is a Hebrew word for Twin. Other value of my name is 229. Other value of her full name is 220. 9 apart. 94th element is Plutonium. Pluto was debunked in planet status a day before I was stung by a bee, b being the very center letter of my name. B being the first letter of the guy's name she's dating now (born 6/26) We had a fight on the 26th. Pluto debunked on the 24th of August.. Bee on the 25th of August, a 23-sum day.

9/4/2006 would be 2229 days from Dec 21st 2012.. double resonance with self, at least.

My left wrist was stung, swelling up my hand to almost twice-size.. I'm allergic to Bees. That was the last weekend we were really "together".

The last day, I finally met her best friend from childhood-who is Jewish.





I had a dream in 2004, where I woke up screaming the loudest I've ever heard myself scream (I've never screamed like this, out of pain and fear). I remember feeling like I was far away, I was in a "round-room" that was gold and white... marble, metalic... I can't explain it.. I felt like I was outside of a ship of some kind, as there was a doorway/window (with no visible retaining material or field) and on the outside there was outer-space... stars... and one blue planet.. or star. I want to say star... but I could look directly at it. I remember feeling sedated... like I was under the influence of something that caused me to just do whatever I was "supposed to do".. what I was told.. I noticed to my left there was a red-headed girl... younger than I. She seemed to be in the same state. I can only say that the girl in my dream resembled the girl I met a year later... Marilyn. I was instructed to move toward a center podium in this rounded-geometric room, on which there was a green/obsidian cube. I remember hearing, "This may hurt a little", and immediately I was contorted into this cube, and then around it... perceptually it's very hard to explain, as my body wasn't really my body.. as I was used to it- at this time. I saw the place that I was in as some kind of circuit-board.. and the cube in the center was glowing... very bright.. phosphorescent. Looked like a CPU of some kind... I got the distinct feeling of something computerized.. . but almost like I was being inserted into it.. again... and what I was just in was "real".. and this world here.. you know the story.

Matrix-like.. maybe..

Anyhow.. I was pulled through once again, being met with geometric images, tons of them-- right before being jarred awake by my own screaming... from feeling like I was being pulled into a black hole.. and through.

The colors of the dream were very much in resonance with the colors Alex Grey chooses to use... the bright golds, oranges, yellows, blues.. green..




So many things at the time I don't recognize as important... but then in time, I do. Nothing is trivial.





There's a lot more to this.. and hopefully after I write it a couple thousand times I might start being more inclusive of all resonances. Maybe I might add more here.





I apologize for the structuring here.. My conscious mind doesn't seem to have a match for my unconscious one ;)